Day

One day can go by without contacting me.
No question, no doubts, no care. Nothing.
If you can do that for one day, what a month? What about a year?
Can you really stand this for long?
Honestly, i can't and i will never will.
So what should i do?
Close an eye or two?
I honestly don't know.
Do we even match?
I ask myself so many times.
What am i to you?

Sadly i am back this time.
Sadly i am blogging this in the toilet too. Hiding myself and crying in the toilet alone.
Too much shit too handle in this relationship.
I seek for your kindness.
I seek for your understanding.
But every time we fight.
Those things were never there. NEVER...
I am really tired of all these.
Ever since we are together, those were the facts that never changed and i doubt will ever change.
Tell me what to do for you to come hugging me instead of clouding your own mind with anger and sadness.
What i need the most now,
Is your understanding.