What

So what does it really take to be a good boyfriend?
Being the fault of your late meeting when he knows you're not feeling well so letting you rest over the time?
Seeing you cry sometimes when you get really upset but its just me crying all the time?
Doing what i think its right and best for you but rather it upsets you?
I really don't know where this relationship is going anymore compare to last time.
So many things have changed, both you and i.
So what should i do? Wait for the one day when either you or I break down from everything?
Wait for the day when i give up on us?
I really don't know what to do anymore.
Being the one always compromising and not being compromised feels like shit. Feels like i'm being fucked around.
I bet its the first time hearing me say "leave me alone" and yet your one reply is just a "k". WOW.

Pointless

It's pointless for me to look for you anymore. It's just meet you after work, send you home and i'm going home alone.
It's pointless for me to go and look for you early in the morning every damn holiday when all i do is just wait for you to wake up and go to work and its just me going home alone again.
It's pointless for me to do so much stuff for your when you barely even did shit for me.
It's pointless for me to put you as my priority when i'm not even your first priority. Its always your friends that comes first.
It's pointless for me to care so much when you don't even give a fuck.
It's pointless for me to show you so much affection when you barely do.
It's pointless for me to put in so much effort for you when you don't even fucking do.
It's pointless for me to expect anything from you because at the end, its all just disappointments.
It's pointless for me to try to understand you when you yourself don't try.
It's pointless for me to get you stuff since you barely wear them or use them and just throw them aside.
But the saddest part is that It's pointless for me  to say all this things. Because you will never understand.

Sick and tired

Sadly, i'm back again.

I guess this place won't die out that easily.

I'm sick and tired of empty promises. Whenever i ranted on you and you said you will try to do something about it. But you didn't

I'm sick and tired of going to your house early in the fucking morning just to accompany you to sleep but all i do is just fucking wait for you to wake up and go to work again and again every fucking day.

I'm sick and tired of feeling alone and lonely. Isn't it fucking pathetic to feel lonely even when i'm in a relationship? 

I'm sick and tired of letting in to you for whatever the fuck you do wrong.You fucked up, i angry and you angry and end up i have to give in.

I'm sick and tired of your ignorant and so much of the don't care attitude. Whenever there's a problem you simply just don't give a fuck.

So why should i do so fucking much for you when you barely did any fucking thing for me?!

I'm dam fed up with all this shit.

I wish I've went to HHN5 with my friends instead of going with you. I was looking so much forward for the event with you but yet you don't even seem to have fun because it's "not your thing".

Fuck you man...

Stop saying you miss me and whatever when you don't even put in the effort to see me.

Tell you to come find me in the morning you say you're not a morning person and it's hard for you to wake up early in the morning. So when i wake up every fucking damn morning on every holidays we have to go to your house? 

And also, i fucking hate it when you're sleeping and when i expect a hug from you during sleep. None. Never was there once. 

Give whatever excuse you have for not doing anything i requested from you.

Isn't it pathetic for your own boyfriend to even need to REQUEST something from you and not you giving on your own.

Look at the amount of fucking things i want to rant. There's even more at the back of my mind.

I kinda not look forward to being in the same class as you next sem though. Shit will definitely happen with your fucking attitude. 

Fuck you