Something

It upsets me whenever i think of this.
Have you truly done something for me before?
I've made several things for you during monthsaries.
I've plan dates to make it a special outing for you.
I've bought you things that you like.
I've gave you lots of surprises such as fetching you after work unsuspectingly.
But what have you done for me?
You've never made a single thing for me.
You never did planed a date for me.
You never did a surprise for me.
But you recorded a song for your friend.
You stitch and made gifts for your friends during their birthdays.
But what about me?
Do i not want something like this?
Do i not like surprises?
I wonder is it because i don't know you longer then they do?
So why is it so?
I feel like shit.
Not given a single fuck at times about my well being.
You did so much for your friends.
But it seems like i never come first.
I just want something. Something from you.