Pointless

It's pointless for me to look for you anymore. It's just meet you after work, send you home and i'm going home alone.
It's pointless for me to go and look for you early in the morning every damn holiday when all i do is just wait for you to wake up and go to work and its just me going home alone again.
It's pointless for me to do so much stuff for your when you barely even did shit for me.
It's pointless for me to put you as my priority when i'm not even your first priority. Its always your friends that comes first.
It's pointless for me to care so much when you don't even give a fuck.
It's pointless for me to show you so much affection when you barely do.
It's pointless for me to put in so much effort for you when you don't even fucking do.
It's pointless for me to expect anything from you because at the end, its all just disappointments.
It's pointless for me to try to understand you when you yourself don't try.
It's pointless for me to get you stuff since you barely wear them or use them and just throw them aside.
But the saddest part is that It's pointless for me  to say all this things. Because you will never understand.